the shelf

this is not everything i've read, heard, or watched. something belongs here only when there is still a feeling, question, disagreement, place, or earlier version of me attached to it. "pretty good" can wait outside

the ratings make everything look more certain than it is. the notes are closer to what i care about: what stayed, what bothered me, and what i would still be happy to hand to someone else

books

small books that make one idea stick, enormous ones with room for a world, and strange objects like S., where reading becomes investigation
  1. Trabalhadores, 1993

    by Sebastião Salgado

    the best photography work i've seen so far. the landscapes are enormous and the work almost incomprehensible, but the people never disappear into the scale. Salgado notices things most of us could pass by and forces us to notice them too, making it difficult to ignore the lives and working conditions he documents. i can open it anywhere and immediately lose track of time

  2. Animal Farm, 1945

    by George Orwell

    almost suspiciously readable for a book with this much to say about power. the premise is simple, the animals feel real, and the slow accumulation of unfairness makes me angrier than books five times its size. Orwell wastes very little and gets away with a lot

  3. On Bullshit, 2005

    by Harry G. Frankfurt

    an interesting book about how much bullshit we accept as part of everyday life. i like that it takes the subject seriously and tries to define what bullshit actually is, though i hoped it would spend more time on what all of it does to society

  4. 1984, 1949

    by George Orwell

    few books have changed the way i see the world as much as this one. it permanently changed what i notice about the manipulation of language, truth, memory, and reality. the way media directs attention toward some things while almost completely ignoring others makes parts of the book feel uncomfortably familiar. it keeps getting harder to avoid drawing parallels between 1984 and real life, which is deeply concerning

  5. Virgil Abloh: Figures of Speech, 2019

    by Michael Darling

    the kind of book i open for one reference and lose an hour to. drafts, notes, clothes, furniture, photographs, buildings: seeing so much of Virgil Abloh's process makes the finished work feel less like magic and more like a mind refusing to stay in one lane. exactly my kind of object

  6. How to Lie with Statistics, 1954

    by Darrell Huff

    short, funny, and more useful every time somebody puts a chart in front of me. it shows how easily numbers can be made to tell a convenient story without turning the lesson into homework. one of the rare books i recommend to almost anyone

  7. Dieter Rams: The Complete Works, 2020

    by Klaus Klemp

    i found this in a bookstore in Germany and immediately traded a ridiculous amount of luggage space for it. the rest of the day was mostly me carrying an extremely heavy monument to keeping things simple. worth it. the book is a beautiful, mesmerizing record of the detail and restraint that made Dieter Rams one of the designers i return to most

  8. The Bicentennial Man, 1976

    by Isaac Asimov

    a far-fetched little story about what it means to be human. it is warm, fun, and much more emotional than i expected from something this short. i know where it is going, and it still gets me every time i come back to it

  9. S., 2013

    by Doug Dorst and J. J. Abrams

    this turns reading into investigation: notes in the margins, loose attachments, stories inside stories, and the constant suspicion that one more clue matters. it demands real attention and is inconvenient to read anywhere that is not a table, which is part of why i love it. i only stop short of five stars because it can be genuinely hard to read, and i've found it almost impossible to buy a new copy

  10. The Little Prince, 1943

    by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

    one of the first books i remember reading from beginning to end without noticing the time. it was one of my mom's favorites and became one of mine too. years later, finding the Little Prince statue in Busan felt like a small circle closing

books usually ask me to stop and pay attention. music follows me around instead: sometimes an album gets the next hour to itself, and sometimes it supplies whatever the day is missing. one AirPod means i'm doing something else; two means i'm shutting the rest of the world out. amo belongs here because few albums hit me that hard, even if that is mostly a me thing

music

music can take over a quiet listening session completely, or do the practical work of adding focus, energy, courage, or a better mood
  1. MIGNONNE, 1978

    by Taeko Onuki

    i listened to this while living in Japan, which means the compositions now arrive with an entire place attached. the warmth, arrangements, and atmosphere can bring that period back before i have time to notice. to me, it is one of the defining albums of Japanese pop, with songwriting and arrangements that still sound completely alive

  2. Mind Over Matter, 2014

    by Young the Giant

    every song moves through its own range of emotions, but the album remains warm and pleasant from beginning to end. i listened to it a lot while traveling with friends in the Swiss Alps in 2025. we spent part of the trip hiking, and its sound became inseparable from that place. now it brings the whole period back almost immediately

  3. From Zero, 2024

    by Linkin Park

    Linkin Park returning would already have been enough to make this important to me. having a woman join as a lead singer creates a clear contrast with the band's earlier sound and makes it obvious they are not trying to recreate the same thing. From Zero feels true to its title: the same DNA, rebuilt around a different voice and a new version of the band. hearing them start again while i am, against all available evidence, technically an adult made the transition land even harder

  4. Slow Bloom, 2021

    by The Home Team

    a joyful argument against the idea that rock and metal need to spend all their time looking serious. playful, funny, wonderfully cheesy, and extremely easy to put on again. exactly the kind of record people who avoid the genres may never realize they are missing

  5. Between Me and The Machine, 2021

    by Resolve

    the atmosphere gets me first, then the central idea keeps following me around: what does an ordinary life become when so much of it happens between a person and a machine? not exactly a neutral question for someone who spends all day at a computer

  6. amo, 2019

    by Bring Me the Horizon

    few albums can rearrange my mood this quickly. it is weird, dark, heavy, melodic, and never especially interested in behaving. amo means love in Portuguese, my language, and knowing about Oli Sykes' ties to Brazil and affection for the country gives the title an extra warmth for me. the attachment is probably too personal to explain cleanly, which may be exactly why it belongs here

  7. Holy Hell, 2018

    by Architects

    heavy, atmospheric, beautiful, and sad, often within the same song. i love how large it sounds without losing the emotion underneath it. the balance between aggression and melody is what keeps me coming back, especially when i want something intense enough to take over my attention

  8. Black Messiah, 2014

    by D'Angelo and The Vanguard

    the hip-hop rabbit hole eventually led me here, and this album opened another direction completely. the playing, writing, and grooves are incredibly rich without ever feeling stiff or overly polished. there is always something new to notice when i come back to it

  9. Collision Course, 2004

    by Jay-Z & Linkin Park

    this did more than reshape Linkin Park songs i already loved. it quietly opened a door into hip-hop that i would not properly walk through until years later. Jay-Z over that nu-metal-era sound should feel like an artifact; instead it still works absurdly well

  10. The Life of Pablo, 2016

    by Kanye West

    messy, funny, unstable, occasionally beautiful, and somehow more alive because it refuses to stay in one shape. it feels less like a clean album than watching several versions of one fight for control. the chaos is the point, or at least it has convinced me

  11. My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy, 2010

    by Kanye West

    everything is bigger here: the confidence, production, appetite, and collapse. it sounds like someone getting exactly what he wanted and discovering that success has not fixed anything. beautiful, excessive, and falling apart in public

  12. The College Dropout, 2004

    by Kanye West

    this sounds like hunger before anyone had time to polish it into branding. the story around its creation and everything that came later seem to converge into one stubborn feeling: i need to make it. one of my favorite albums in any genre

  13. Random Access Memories, 2013

    by Daft Punk

    the meeting point between almost everything i love about music: human performance and machines, instruments and samples, precision and warmth. every part feels obsessively made, but none of it loses its pulse. i can admire the construction and still just dance to it

movies & tv

on-screen stories that took me somewhere else for a while, showed me another perspective, or left an atmosphere behind long after the credits
  1. Eyes Wide Shut, 1999

    directed by Stanley Kubrick

    beautiful, strange, and probably responsible for an unreasonable number of internet theories. i love how deliberately it moves and withholds information, but i am still not convinced every unanswered question earns its mystery. maybe a little less ambiguity would have left room for a little less nonsense. still, an excellent movie

  2. Chungking Express, 1994

    directed by Wong Kar-wai

    i watched this after coming home from Hong Kong, and the whole movie landed differently. the step-printed movement, cramped rooms, color, noise, and people constantly brushing past one another no longer felt stylized so much as remembered. i loved it as a movie; it also became a way back

  3. Parasite, 2019

    directed by Bong Joon Ho

    i waited far too long and then discovered the hype had somehow undersold it. almost every frame seems to be quietly explaining the characters, their class, or what is about to go wrong. the direction, performances, cinematography, and production design all pull in the same direction without ever feeling like homework

  4. Sinners, 2025

    directed by Ryan Coogler

    one of the last movies i saw in a theater, and exactly the kind that justifies the room. the story works and the soundtrack is phenomenal, but the images are what stayed. the cinematography and format choices make it feel like a singular object, and seeing it at that scale is a large part of the experience

  5. Bo Burnham: Inside, 2021

    by Bo Burnham

    a one-person production inside one room that somehow keeps expanding. it is funny, anxious, meticulous, theatrical, and painfully good at putting me back inside lockdown. it captures that strange period clearly, while the songs, editing, and staging give me plenty of reasons to watch it again

  6. The Grand Budapest Hotel, 2014

    directed by Wes Anderson

    every frame looks arranged within an inch of its life, yet the movie never feels trapped by that precision. the photography, sets, movement, and timing make the whole thing feel slightly impossible. i have seen few movies this beautiful and even fewer this playful about it

  7. Blade Runner 2049, 2017

    directed by Denis Villeneuve

    the movie is good; the light is the reason it is here. color and soft, unfocused glows come from every direction, illuminating the characters while making them feel even more alone. the photography gives the whole movie an atmosphere i still think about

  8. Mr. Robot, 2015-2019

    created by Sam Esmail

    i nearly skipped this because people kept describing it as the “hackerman” show. once i watched it, the hacking quickly became the least interesting part. this is a frightening, stressful story about deeply flawed people, including a main character whose problems can become so overwhelming that they paralyze him

    the relationships between the characters, and how they change under that pressure, are what kept me invested through the series. it is beautifully shot, especially in how it uses strong colors, and its larger argument about how fucked society is at its core feels uncomfortably plausible. some scenes still give me chills

  9. Interstellar, 2014

    directed by Christopher Nolan

    one of the first science-fiction movies i remember wanting to learn more about. i was finally old enough to spend time with the physics, arguments, and diagrams, even when i did not fully understand them. the images are beautiful, but Hans Zimmer's soundtrack is what makes the movie complete for me. he is one of my favorite film composers, and understanding the choices he made for this score changed how i experience entire scenes

  10. The Matrix, 1999

    directed by Lana Wachowski and Lilly Wachowski

    i watched this at 16 or 17, long after its ideas and action scenes had been copied enough to look familiar. seeing the source made half the genre rearrange itself in my head. some of it may look cheesy now because everyone else spent years borrowing from it. the idea that we might live in a simulation has aged differently: it keeps coming back and feels more relevant now than ever

movies make the point most clearly. i usually remember the way a movie moved before i remember every turn in its story: the camera, color, sound, or one room arranged so carefully that it becomes a character. watching Chungking Express after returning from Hong Kong made that especially obvious. the city no longer felt like a backdrop

not every recommendation arrives at the right moment. some books need a particular frame of mind, some movies do not exist yet, and sometimes curiosity gets there long before the time does. wanting to get there is enough to keep track, but not enough for a rating

up next

books and movies i want to get to, waiting for the right frame of mind and enough uninterrupted time to give them a fair chance
  1. Ghetto at the Center of the World: Chungking Mansions, Hong Kong, 2011

    by Gordon Mathews

    up next

    i bought this after coming home from Hong Kong, during a period when i could not stop thinking about the city. Chungking Mansions is one of its most fascinating places, and i'm excited to understand more about how it came to be and the world that formed inside it

  2. The Art of Doing Science and Engineering: Learning to Learn, 1997

    by Richard W. Hamming

    up next

    i haven't read this yet. it is a big, technical book, so i need to be in the right frame of mind for it. i've always thought of coding and technology as forms of art, and i've written about that before. seeing that idea treated as one of the book's main themes makes me especially curious to read it

  3. The Odyssey, 2026

    directed by Christopher Nolan

    up next

    i haven't seen this yet. i'm a big Christopher Nolan fan, everyone seems excited, and i'm curious to see how he handles something this enormous. it sounds like a very enjoyable watch

the shelf is finished only in the sense that i stopped editing it today. new things will find their way in, old ratings will move, and a few opinions will probably age badly

if you want somewhere to start, read S., listen to amo, or watch Chungking Express. no quiz and no algorithm, just three things i'd be happy to hand you myself. now the shelf gets to work in the other direction

leave one?

i'd love to hear about something you care deeply about. so feel free to recommend anything, even if you don't think it's my thing

the good part of leaving this open is that recommendations can move in both directions. maybe you find something here, maybe i find something through you, and the shelf gets a little better either way

that's everything on the shelf for now. if you're curious about the person collecting it, there's more about me